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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 01:46

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So whats the point in blame.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I write beautiful poetry .

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My family never makes their pension either.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

She found it foreign!.

I was scared of men, in general

Why do men cheat on their wives with someone extremely unattractive?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im still living with it.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And i lived it daily.

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Would this be the day?

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It was going to be , some day.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But ive been too sick for many years..

When was the last time you had sex with someone much older than yourself?

This is soul school!.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I waited trembling.

How can I get rid of the fake girls on social media that are claiming to be hookups? Is there a way to shuffle through them and the real women that actually want to talk?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I think the readers, may guess!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Comes on , in middle age.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But it wasn’t much.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He knew the spot.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I could never make a relationship work though!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was seconnd youngest,

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

One cannot live in the past .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

What did i know ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I will be 64.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He resisted the act ,that day.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We were not on the streets..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She loved him until the end.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

When she asked me how she looked .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I don,t even have a pension.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was very sick at this time too.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I said to her

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She wouldn,t have been !

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Who then, do I blame.?

My life is so biszare .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was 9 years of age.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She was in good health!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

All the time i was locked up.

We all went to grammer schools

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She married twice! .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Ive learnt so much.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I have no regrets .

(And it was in our own minds.)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

So, i spoilt her more .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Was to survive, this bastard.

But, we were locked up after school.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Put me off passion for life!!

As i do to all so called friends.?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life